Mike DeCapite's Liner Notes for Curlew's lp Gussie
_____Loud sheets of winter colliding in a dark bedroom. Invisibly. Waves: a perpetual
succession of events perceptible by repercussions which make themselves understood in
lavender and orange, which approach the visible in lavender and orange refracted from clarity.
Still life broken down to steady incremental motion. Movement, movement: every object
moving endlessly forward to stillness, within stillness. Is it time I'm seeing? Every object
arching, flowing within its stillness. One a.m., the fog has settled in, is complete. Do I get
the heart attack I deserve? I yawn again while fiercely awake. I'm torn by passions yet
- from RUINED FOR LIFE!
Aah the lonesome curve and all of us who, late night, slide down it. "How's my ex-wife?"
"I see her when I pass the bar," and so-and-so and so-and-so, so on and so forth, here in
the awful hollow arena of present tense, the phone put down and the ear still ringing from
another trans-American conversation. It's night all over: frozen clouds are stamped with wires
and rooftops and steeples and chimneypots, vibrating in and out of meaning so fast it
creates a different light inbetween. All is lost and all is gained and lost and gained in so fast
a strobe a sodden bright limbo is created of cloudlight, which is our eternal backdrop at this
hour. Something cries for the excised moments while something sighs content with what
there is, and neither outdoes the other but both comprise the systole and diastole——the
vibration of the present tense.
from RUINED FOR LIFE!
All bright dusks
almost midnight, again the variations on pachelbel skirting, trembling, sifting down but never
settling...like fog...like a heart kept open...a question whose only answer is no answer...and
that’s the answer forever...until you betray the question by answering it otherwise...
how do i always find myself still in my jacket like this?
do clouds mean anything? no, i know they don't. but i’ve chosen that they should, i've
decided they do.
and so they do.
be careful what you wish for if what you wish is never to sleep again.
dirty tape, our picture on the door, your face close to mine.
all bright dusks mean something, they are the only moments that last.
June 7 & 28, 2002